ok, ok. Don't say a word. I already feel bad enough as it is for having not posted for like 10 billion years, ok, so perhaps that is a SLIGHT exxageration, but you get the idea.!!!

well......since I last posted I have done a fair bit of stuff, but at the same time it feels as though I've done nothing. Last time I posted I had a bit of a scare cause I had numbness and tingling in my legs, and I had teh hospital ring me up and tell me I had to go into Emergency dept etc etc, so I had MRI scans done, and saw my neurosurgeon, but its all good. Apparently its fairly normal for taht to happen (*phew!*). The bad news was, taht one of the $4000 implants has fallen out, ahh welll, what can you do??

Then Sharona was away in Melbourne for 10 days, and due to me feeling thoroughly abandoned, I spent most of my waking hours in boys dorm!!! So basically I have spent the last month Organising a stormCo which we are running in June (WOHHOOO!!!) and decorating the res, and watching lots of movies in boys dorm & tons and tons of shopping. There was one week where I was soooo bored I went shopping every day, just for the hell of it!!! I have bought all my christmas presents, except for Leiths which I will pick up tomorrow.

Monday I had teh biggest scare of my life. My solicitors rang me from QLD and told me taht they wouldn't take my case on. Basically, its one huge mess, and cause the time (9months) for a claim after a car accident has elapsed, tehy didn't want to deal with it. I didn't see how that was fair because it was because of medical negligence taht this whole situation has dragged on so long. I was crying and crying and saying to the lawyer "my life is ruined and I can't do a damn thing about it". I was absolutely devestated because this whole back problem thing costs a heck of a lot of money, and I already owe my Dad thousands of $ and we were hoping to get a nice 6 figure sum for compo.

So after I got off the phone Sharona was comforting me and then we went and had lunch with Leith and talked about what we could do & did a lot of praying about it. I had just gotten back to my room when my phone rang - it was teh solicitor again, saying she'd done a lot of thinking, and they will now take me on!!! I was ecstatic!!! PRAYER WORKS!!!So then I had to fill out a load of legal paperwork etc and post it off. Basically, If my claim is accepted by the insurance company I'm suing, they will let me know by February, and it should be settled by teh wnd of the year. Solicitor fees could cost as much as $40,000, and if I lose, I could end up having to pay the insurance company $50,000. Not cheap stuff!!!!

Another thing whihc has been greatly stressing me out lately is some bad news I received not long ago. Basically, a few weeks ago I started having my old back pain. I panicked, because I knew taht wasn't supposed to happen. I rang my neurosurgeon who was in surgery at teh time, but he called back when I was out shopping and basically dealt me the hugest blow- my surgery has failed. I have no other option than to have another, much larger surgery- a fusion. He said taht he DID NOT want to do this surgery on me, being so young, but he has no other choice. I think I am the first person my age to have this done by him, and I'm definitely not looking forward to it!!!

 A problem I face is the fact taht I have 3 weeks of clinical coming up, and I seriously don't know If I'll be able to do it. My back canes when I even make my own bed, or shower myself, so I don't know how I'll do it for other people. But basically, I have to do it or I fail, and I'd have to take a semester off. If I do the clinical, there is a small possibility taht I could have the surgery done in a 6 week clinical block in march, but if the surgery can't be done right at teh beginning, then I'd miss out on too many classes and fail. arrrgghhh...its just all so frustrating!!! Hopefully though, if my compo claim is accepted, my next surgery will be done privately- aahhh, wouldn't taht be a nice change from the horrors of Westmead public!!!

anywho..onto more pleasant matters: I met up with a friend of mine who I grew up with in Goulburn. Haven't seen him in 12 years!!! It was awesome seeing him and catching up with him. He's a dentist, just down the road. Talk about a small world!!

I cant' wait till Christmas!!!! Sharona and I will go to church, stay for the Christmas luncheon with Jamie, then hang out with him till he goes to work, then we'll get ready for 4pm when Leith gets off work and then we'll have an afternooon tea and open all our presents!!! talk about exciting!!! Then taht night we'll go to Yolanda's house for Christmas dinner with her family. i am absolutely stoked. I am sad taht its my first Christmas without my family, but I'll get over it. I have plenty of friends here and I'l sure we'll all have an absolute ball!!!!

Anywho......really need to go and get some beauty sleep, I have a full day tomorrow of Physiotherapy and last-minute Christmas shopping.

Have a great Christmas everyone!!!

:)  :)  :)