WELLL....

Life is absolutely crazy at the moment!!!

Went and saw a specialist on Monday at St. Leonards- Paid $225 for him to tell me he doesn't know whats wrong with me!!! Sent me for even MORE blood tests (leaves me wondering how much blood I actually have left!!!) and referred me to have an ultrasound done. Had prayer meeting at 7pm and we prayed taht God would give me the answer I needed for my operation- and He did.

but then everything changed...Now its actually quite a complex story & very hard to explain so I'll try & simplify it, but it may still seem confusing.

My neurosurgeon rang me yesterday and said taht the private hospital booking had fallen through. Then soonest I could get into private would be in a month. Then he changed his mind and said he could squeeze me in 2 weeks time, but he would be doing my operation straight after another fusion- whcih he normally doesn't do- quite scary considering its an 8 hr operation and one wouldn't want their surgeon to be tired when doing a second one!!!

But now it all depends on the insurance company. Hoprfully the doctor's notes taht are needed will arrive to my solicitor today and then the approval process should start rolling. Problem is though, my neuro needs to know by THURSDAY MORNING at teh latest whether I'm going public or private. We won't know the Insurance company's answer till Thursday AT THE EARLIEST. My parent need to know if I'm going public by WEDNESDAY NIGHT!!!! Impossible one might say, but everything is possible with God!!! This whole journey has been incredibly tough on my faith- its so easy sometimes to doubt and worry about everything- but ever so slowly I am learning to put my full trust in God.

I really don't want to go back to Hell hole westmead, but if it happens, it happens. My Neurosurgeon was giving me a rough estimate on how much the operation would cost to go private- $17000 for a 'confirmation fee' (what the??!!). He said the most expensive part of all is not the actual operation, or the stay in hospital, but the implants (screws, metal cages, rods etc). Now considering taht it costs about $2500 per day to stay here at the SAH (a private hospital), times taht by approx 7 days = $17,500. So far the cost is up to $34,500- thats without the actual operation or the highly expensive implants!!!! the mind boggles!!!!

Anywho, I need to go & shower and get ready for Childbearing (well not real childbearing, but you know, the class. Although....I am having an ultrasound done today- Sharona is certain taht I am pregnant. I don't have the heart to tell her they're only examining my spleen!!! lol)

Have an awesome day everyone :)