do you ever get so homesick that you infact, literally feel physically sick???

thats the way I feel now. I haven't been home since march, and i know thats only 4 months, but still........

Mum rang and said that its snowing in stanthorpe and i was like oooohhh....i wanna goooo hhoooommmmeee!!!!

I'm so sick of the dodgy weather down here, it has been raining non-stop for a WEEK and i know we need the rain and stuff, but it just makes me so darn miserable!!! (DUMB NSW!!! the only thing its good for is origin!!!) I haven't been going on my nightly walks and i feel like curling up in bed with hot drinks and watching movies. But i tell myself to do something constuctive, so I have been doing my crafty stuff...in the process of crocheting 3 sacrves and doing 2 cross-stitches, so thats good to take my mind off stuff.

I miss everyone so much!!! I was wastching a movie yesterday about a convict fellow back in the 1800's who was sent to an island by himself for months. The captain that sent him there said that "loneliness is the worst form of punishment'......and its so true!!! Sharona flew out yesterday, clover left today, and everyone else left ages ago. Not even my neighbour is here to annoy!!!

So i have decided to go home.....even though i'm not supposed to be travelling too much.....anyway, its just for the weekend to surprise my mum!!! I can't wait to see the look on her face!!! She's not expecting me to come home till december or january. So my sis and I have been plotting and have found a way to arrange it all so mum doesn't find out!!! tee hee hee....

hmmm...only 5.5 weeks till college starts..YAY!!! THen i can see lots of ppl ...Shaz and I already have our first 2 weekends up there planned (can you tell that we're excited about going???!!!)

Anywho.....I should go cause i'm going to bed early tonight because I'm working all day tomorrow at the ABC (and just WHEN I THOUGHT THEY'D FIRE ME...I GET MORE WORK!!! how wierd is that!!!??? i'm also working saturday nite and sunday...maybe i should do dumb stuff more often!!! money money money.....)

nitey nite to all my fans!!

:P

well today was one of the most stressful days i've had in weeks!!!

its was the first day where I got to work at the ABC the entire day, unsupervised, which meant that I had to open up etc etc. Well, I arrived 1.2 an hour early, just in case....and boy oh boy did I need it!!! Everything arrived smoothly until i had to open the safe. Now before you laugh at me, let me inform you that this is not ordinary safe-its mean, cunning and all-round horrible!!! it has a big chip on its shoulder when it comes to ABC personnel. so i do the righ combination and i hear the little 'click' but i can't open the door, so i try again and again and again [insert infinity here]

i was getting really frustrated and the more frustrated i become the sweatier my hands became....no chance of opening that door.  so i rang my boss who told me to use something to pry the stupid heavy door open, so i used a metal ruler and sliced 3 of my fingers open. So then i have blood pouring everywhere going all over the phone and the safe and the phone book & I have customers who come in despite the fact that the shop wasn't open yet!!!.....arrrghh!!! so my boss is on her way to a retreat & can't solve the problem and asks me to call another staff member....so i did and she wasnt' home. So my boss said to not worry about it, it happens to everyone and just have ppl pay eftpos or credit card. So thats what I had to do. Highly embarassing? yes! The worst day I've had in weeks? YES!!!

So the first thing I'll do come monday morning is kick that STOOPPID SAFE to kingdom come!!! AAAAARRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHH H!!!!!OOOHHHHHHHHH the SHHHAAMMMEEEEE and EMBARASSSMMEEENNNNTTTTTTT TT!!!!!

i am soooooo glad that its SAbbath and I can forget all about the silly little stresses of life and chill out with my God!!!

Happy SAbbath everyone!!! :)

erb klsjdfoj jkjfksjooobbblle pppphhhhyyy oooiii mmmmmereeeerrrrrrr!!!!

these were sharonas first words after waking up from a general anaesthetic. Yes, well Monday was the big day for her....the day that she lost all her wisdom (teeth)

....we woke up at 6am, for a departure time of 6.23am precisely sad yolanda who wanted to leave plenty of time to be at the hospital by 7am. Well, I knocked on her door at 6am and she demanded to know what unearthly time it was. When i informed her, she replied "pffft, then i've still got 22 minutes to sleep!"

Needless to say, at 6.23am ON THE DOT we were waiting for yoie to arouse her dopey self and ever-so-slowly out on her shoes and socks. We ended up leaving at about 6.30, and we made it to the hospital on time. and let me tell you, Dalcross is the most picture-perfect hospital ever- it looks like something out of a story-book!!! its like a minature castle....sooo cute!!! So i got to play paparazzi and had to have every aspect of shaz's hospital stay on film....yay!!! She warned us that she may be in a bad mood after the surgery, so we prepared ourselves for the worst.

We got to sit in her room for a little while, and i got mistaken for her MOTHER!!!! my goodness...she's older than i am!!! then it wasn't long before she got dressed into her sexy white gown and was wheeled off to theatre. I wanted to stay and wait, i really did. But i had to work in a few hours time, so it wasn't practical. Yoie and I came home and crashed from a big lack of sleep (although being back as student dean has its downpoints..especially when you JUST get to sleep and someone comes banging on your door!!!) and then i went to work. We bought some flowers which we named 'jemima'. Then we left for the hospital.

Sharona was out of it longer than they expected....quite a few hours more. she was asleep when we got there and we were told by the RN's to wake her. SHe was so out-of-it and mumbling and her eyes were darting off in different directions!!!! she was soooo cute!!! but she soon livened up and started eating her jelly and incecream. We even got so rowdy at one stage that the lady in the bed next door was telling us to be quiet...whoops!!! shax had 2 student nurses looking after her. one of them had to take out her cannula...poor girl she must have been so nervous with 4 of us watching her, her hands were shaking like anything!!!

we were off around 4pm and brought the patient home. and i am happy to report that she is doing well...exceptionally well in fact!!! When clover had her wisdom teeth out she was practically dying and ended up in emergency!!! but shaz is up and about, eating, drinking, watching movies and chatting. its wonderful!!! I'm so glad that she's ok!!! :)

I have been working on assignemnts for nursing, trying to get ahead for next year. and i got quite a bit done...then today i was informed that with the new program, everything will change. what a BUMMER!!! :(

i worked tonight: 5-7pm. my very first time of closing the shop...oooh how exciting!!!

more and more ppl are going on holidays....so this place is getting quieter and quieter...kinda eery sometimes!!! so i'm just keeping myself busy, and hopefully i wont notice it!!!

hope you all have great holidays, and for those who still have exams...study hard, and then a bit harder, and then even harder!!!

cheers big ears :)

ahhh the joy of friendship!!!! Sharona and i are currently sitting in the res computer room writing hate mail to each other....ohh it makes me get a warm fuzzy feeling inside.....!!!! (can't wait till she goes to hospital on monday.....then i can reallllyy torture her...bwa ha HA HA HA HA!!!)

herm erm....anyway....today i was supposed to go to Wahroonga church...was really looking forward to it too but last night stupid kelly thought she was super-woman so didn't take ANY painkillers.....as a result, kelly was writhing in pain the entire night and didn't get to sleep until approximately 8AM!!!! therefore kelly missed church altogether!!!! stupid idiot!!! :P

so what else has been happening in my exciting life of late????? welll.....ummm.....been working every-day at the ABC, thats always fun, had some lady yelling at her boyfriend the other day...accusing him of not being a true christian etc etc....so that was a lot of fun!!!

Been on a cleaning and sorting streak this week......actually vacummed my room for the first time in AGES, and have thrown out 3 HUGE garbage bags of paper i was hoarding......and after only 1.5 years of college....it makes me shudder to think how much stuff i will have when i'm 70!!!

oh and of course wednesday nite, what a WONDERFUL fantastic nite......re the state of origin!!!! it was quite amusing....i was sitting next to a fellow queenslander (but she goes for QLD....what a dumb concept!!!) and each time the opposite side scored we hit each other and laughed at the groaning and inability to watch any more....!!! game 3......GO THE BLUES!!!

erm what else???? umm.....ooooh my sister asked me to be her maid of honour at her wedding!!!! I'm sooooooooooooo excited!!!!!

got a letter from my solicitor stating that I have an appointment with ANOTHER neurosurgeon who is to examine me to decide how my injuries affected/affect my life bla bla bla....the cost for this consultation is a mere $1000 !!!!! always fun when that happens......i think i may have missed my calling!!!! should have become a neurosurgeon instead!!!

My friend Yoie and I got all excited this week because we decided to join either the air force or the navy.....such wonderful incentives...we'e never have to worry about paying fees ever again. Only one problem....i doubt very much they're take me due to my medical history and likelihood of future surgeries......real bummer that :(

I have watched 24 hours of 'little house on the prairie' DVD's this week. Talk about addictive!!! It just makes me wanna go and move out to the middle of nowhere and live simply with my hardworking husband and adoring children.....wait a minute!!! something seems wrong about that......hrrmmm...perhaps i'd better get myself a hubby and kids and then move!!!! lol. Well, if you think i'm bad, you should see sharona- she's gotten really attached to this book 'redeeming love'.....so sad!!! lol, not really, us nurses need some sort of fantasy/daydreaming to keep us alive!!! where are the toy boys when you need them eh>??? :P

everyone is leaving or left to go home on holidays.....i really wish it was me :( its gonna be so lonely here when Sharona leaves.....*loud sobbing* (dont' say you're not loved shaz!!!)

and carlz didn't even bother to call me back on friday night.....where's the love...hey??? too busy to call your only sane buddy-ol-pal??? just cause its your 25th wedding anniversary- that is no excuse!!! lol. just you wait!!!

anywho.....probably should go and get some sleep so i can continue with my exciting day tomorrow!!! YAY!!!

nitey nite :)

Note: THis was actually written on THursday 9th June but due to computer difficulties it hasn't been posted till today.

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OI OI OI!!!! WHAT A DAY!!!

This is the busiest, most full on day I've had in 6 weeks!!!

THis morning Aofaga and I left around 7.45am to go see my neurosurgeon. I was surprisingly calm....had a nice phonecall from Carla and BRaden the nite before and i did a lot of reading bible texts, and Aofaga coming with me was just so sweet of her. We made a great pair, because we both waddle when we walk and can only walk slowly, so i was thankful she wasn't like racing ahead of me all the time!!! We ended up talking most of the trip to chatswood and back about babies (she is 25 weeks pregnant) which was cool, especially b/c i found out today I CAN HAVE CHILDREN!!!! WOOHOOOOO!!!! GOD IS GOOD!!! AMEN??

you see, before this surgery my surgeon told me that my chances of having kids were slim b/c i wouldn't be able to carry a baby with my back being the way it was. But today he told me I can have kids, and im sooooo excited!!! He also told me i can continue with nursing which is FANTASTIC b/c previously he had told me to quit. ALl the results he gave me were pretty good, although I did have one scare. When i walked into his office he sighed and asked how i was feeling. He gave me 'the look' he always gives me when something is really wrong. I said that im still in quite significant pain and he was shaking his head and was like...this is not good......3 months and you're still in lots of pain. ANd i was like....WOAH!!! hang on a sec....its only been 6 weeks!!! and he gave the biggest sigh of relief!!!! what a mistake!!! I was packing it there for a while!!! So then, so far it all looks great. Of course there is still a chance it could have been a failure, and almost certain i will need more surgeries, but HEY!!! I can be a Mum and I can be a nurse!!! Thats all I care about for now!!!! So all day i've been on like this HUGE high, b/c life is so wonderful!!! My quality of life is starting to come back, and it just makes me so grateful for all the little things we take for granted!!

So just thought i'd share that fantastic news with ya'all. :)

Then when Aofaga and I got back i had a nap, then went to work for an hour, and then Yoie, Shaz and I went shopping and to the movies. I got to be pushed around by SHarona (as usual....like whats new!???) in a wheelchair, so that was kindof fun. Sitting for that long a time wasn't so fun, but i was with my friends....i almost felt normal again, so it was great!!! JUst got back to the res and had a phonecall from my Mum which was nice. and now here i am...telling you all about it.

I really should go and get some rest, i'm absolutely stuffed.

Have a lovely nite everyone....and enjoy life....isn't it WONDERFUL!????

PS- I will give 50 cents to anyone who can tell me what sort of a car my neurosurgeon drives>>>> (and sharona, you can't enter this!!!)

YAY!!! I am at one of my most favourite places in the world.....AVONDALE!!!!

I'm going home tomorrow tho..... :(

but it has been a simply FANTASTIC weekend, so i'm heaps happy :)